The Bubble Pops! (American Economy)

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Sons of Korah, Psalm 93, “… The seas have lifted up! …”

We both woke on 12-1-2022 hearing this same lyric in our hearts, from the same song/Psalm.

After the churning of the great sea in Daniel 7, destruction visits the earth that changes the course of history.

The Jeremiah 6, “fruit of their schemes,” amazingly refers to Fed Chair Powell’s speech/actions the day before, 11-30-2022, exasperating the current stock market super bubble.

We can be encouraged that God has set a boundary so that destruction’s reach can only go so far.  I do not believe this is the end of time, but it is abundantly clear to Susan and I that the world is racing toward The End, when The Man Comes Around.

The other attachments are mere supplements.  I note that even the author of the crash comparison charts (Michael Kramer, not Jim Cramer) is losing confidence in their significance.  But in light of the insights I am asserting, I think the charts will end up holding water.

Jesus comes to judge with equity.  Before He gets here, whatever came out of the churned-by-heaven great sea will prepare the Way for Him, bringing down the lofty.  A catalyst for a great Kingdom harvest like 9/11 scored me and like the many, many I saw saved through Hurricane Katrina disaster relief ministry.

The cynic in me says that the U.S. President’s Executive Order 14067 is meant to be the solution to the man-made disaster, centralized digital banking for everyone … with total government control, mark of the beast stuff.  My two cents, hope it’s worthless.  Go figure, the E.O. goes into effect the next time Fed Chair Powell is scheduled to act to ‘fix’ things, 12/13(& 14)/2022. 

January 2022 vision, posted in June 2022:  NASDAQ bottom, 6484 !

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The Day of the Lord

1Th 5:1  Now concerning the times and the seasons, brothers, you have no need to have anything written to you. 

1Th 5:2  For you yourselves are fully aware that the day of the Lord will come like a thief in the night. 

1Th 5:3  While people are saying, “There is peace and security,” then sudden destruction will come upon them as labor pains come upon a pregnant woman, and they will not escape. 

1Th 5:4  But you are not in darkness, brothers, for that day to surprise you like a thief. 

1Th 5:5  For you are all children of light, children of the day. We are not of the night or of the darkness. 

1Th 5:6  So then let us not sleep, as others do, but let us keep awake and be sober. 

1Th 5:7  For those who sleep, sleep at night, and those who get drunk, are drunk at night. 

1Th 5:8  But since we belong to the day, let us be sober, having put on the breastplate of faith and love, and for a helmet the hope of salvation. 

1Th 5:9  For God has not destined us for wrath, but to obtain salvation through our Lord Jesus Christ, 

1Th 5:10  who died for us so that whether we are awake or asleep we might live with him. 

1Th 5:11  Therefore encourage one another and build one another up, just as you are doing. 

Final Instructions and Benediction

1Th 5:12  We ask you, brothers, to respect those who labor among you and are over you in the Lord and admonish you, 

1Th 5:13  and to esteem them very highly in love because of their work. Be at peace among yourselves. 

1Th 5:14  And we urge you, brothers, admonish the idle, encourage the fainthearted, help the weak, be patient with them all. 

1Th 5:15  See that no one repays anyone evil for evil, but always seek to do good to one another and to everyone. 

1Th 5:16  Rejoice always, 

1Th 5:17  pray without ceasing, 

1Th 5:18  give thanks in all circumstances; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you. 

1Th 5:19  Do not quench the Spirit. 

1Th 5:20  Do not despise prophecies, 

1Th 5:21  but test everything; hold fast what is good. 

1Th 5:22  Abstain from every form of evil. 

1Th 5:23  Now may the God of peace himself sanctify you completely, and may your whole spirit and soul and body be kept blameless at the coming of our Lord Jesus Christ. 

1Th 5:24  He who calls you is faithful; he will surely do it. 

1Th 5:25  Brothers, pray for us. 

1Th 5:26  Greet all the brothers with a holy kiss. 

1Th 5:27  I put you under oath before the Lord to have this letter read to all the brothers. 

1Th 5:28  The grace of our Lord Jesus Christ be with you. 

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When Justice is Done

When justice is done, it brings joy to the righteous but terror to evildoers.  Proverb 21:15

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“But when the Helper comes, whom I will send to you from the Father, the Spirit of truth, who proceeds from the Father, he will bear witness about me. And you also must bear witness…” Jesus Christ, John 15:26-27.

Below, a record of my communion in the Spirit of Jesus Christ minus all political preferences (and including truthful dates/events) as a progression of the October 2020 Facebook message/post above, including, “God is always working what is right (rescue) for ALL who are oppressed (Psalm 103:6).”  May God bless:

Psa 2:1  Why are the nations in an uproar, and their people involved in a vain plot? 
Psa 2:2  As the kings of the earth take their stand and the rulers conspire together against the LORD and his anointed, they say, 
Psa 2:3  “Let us tear off their shackles, and cast off their restraints.” 
Psa 2:4  He who sits in the heavens laughs; the Lord scoffs at them. 
Psa 2:5  In his anger he rebukes them, and in his wrath he terrifies them: 
Psa 2:6  “I have set my king on Zion, my holy mountain.” 
Psa 2:7  I announce the decree of the LORD that he told me: “You are my son … I have become your father. 
Psa 2:8  Ask of me, and I will give you the nations as your inheritance, the ends of the earth as your possession. 
Psa 2:9  You will break them with an iron rod, you will shatter them like pottery.” 
Psa 2:10  Therefore, kings, act wisely! Earthly rulers, be warned! 
Psa 2:11  Serve the LORD with fear, and rejoice with trembling. 
Psa 2:12  Kiss (worship) the son before he becomes angry, and you die where you stand (or, perish in your own way). Indeed, his wrath can flare up quickly. How blessed are those who take refuge in him. 

, awakened by, “I will rescue you” (Lauren Daigle).
Isa 14:5  The LORD has broken the staff of the wicked, the scepter of rulers…

Isa 14:24  The LORD of hosts has sworn: “As I have planned, so shall it be, and as I have purposed, so shall it stand, 
Isa 14:25  that I will break the Assyrian (oppression) in my land, and on my mountains trample him underfoot; and his yoke shall depart from them, and his burden removed from their shoulder.” 
Isa 14:26  This is the plan that is purposed concerning the whole earth, and this is the hand that is stretched out over all the nations. 
Isa 14:27  For the LORD of hosts has purposed, and who will annul it? His hand is stretched out, and who will turn it back? 

8-2-2022, election day in Arizona.
Isa 28:5  At that time, the LORD of the Heavenly Armies will become a glorious crown (Acts 2:3), a beautiful diadem for the remnant of his people, 
Isa 28:6  and a spirit of justice to the one who sits in judgment, a source of strength to those who turn back the battle at the gate. 

awakened by, “I was living a lie, until You. I’m coming alive, with You!” (from “Amen,” by For King & Country), AZ election results announced.
Isa 52:9  Break forth together into singing, you ruins of Jerusalem; for the LORD has comforted his people, and he has redeemed Jerusalem.

Isa 52:10  The LORD will lay bare his holy arm in the eyes of all the nations; and all the ends of the earth will see the salvation of our God. 

8-6-2022, awakened by, “You will fulfill Your promise to me, that I will rise in Your victory” (from “Take Courage,” by Kristene DiMarco).
Isa 9:1  … there will be no more gloom for those who were in distress. In the past he humbled … but in the future he will honor …  
Isa 9:2  The people who walked in darkness have seen a great light; those who dwelt in a land of deep darkness, on them has light shone
Isa 9:3  You have multiplied the nation; you have increased its joy; they rejoice before you as with joy at the harvest, as they are glad when they divide the spoil. 
Isa 9:4  … the rod of the oppressor, you have broken as on the day of Midian. 

8-15-2022, awakened by a vision:  I saw smoke circulating among tall, dry grass.  (Day before Wyoming elections.)
Psa 59:5  You, LORD God of the Heavenly Armies, God of Israel, stir yourself up … Show no mercy to those wicked traitors.  (note:  I didn’t go looking for a Word to link to any election this day; just same as always, “Speak to me, Lord, I am listening for You.”)

, awakened by, “He’s rolling up His sleeves again!” (from “Help is on the Way,” by Toby Mac).  Election day in Wyoming.
Isa 30:18Yet the Lord longs to be gracious to you; therefore he will rise up to show you compassion. For the Lord is a God of justice. Blessed are all who wait for him!

Isa 30:26  The LORD binds up the bruises of his people, and heals the wounds he inflicted.

Isa 31:4  For thus the LORD said to me, “As a lion or a young lion growls over his prey, and when a band of shepherds is called out against him he is not terrified by their shouting or daunted at their noise, so the LORD of hosts will come down to fight on Mount Zion and on its hill. 
Isa 31:5  Like birds hovering, so the LORD of hosts will protect Jerusalem; he will protect and deliver it; he will spare and rescue it.” 

Isa 30:30  And the LORD will cause his majestic voice to be heard and the descending blow of his arm to be seen, in furious anger and a flame of devouring fire, with a cloudburst and storm and hailstones. 
Isa 30:32  And every stroke of the appointed staff that the LORD lays on them will be to the sound of tambourines and lyres. Battling with brandished arm, he will fight them. 

8-22-2022, awakened by, “Fix my eyes on You!” (by For King & Country)
Isa 62:11  See, your Savior comes!  See, his reward is with him and his work before him.

Isa 62:1  For Zion’s sake I will not keep silent, and for Jerusalem’s sake I will not be quiet, until her righteousness goes forth as brightness, and her salvation as a burning torch. 

Isa 61:11  For just as the soil brings forth its shoots, and as a garden makes what is sown within it spring up, so the LORD God will make righteousness and praise spring up before all the nations

8-23-2022, awakened by a lyric I hadn’t heard in the Spirit since August 16th (that is, WY election day), “He’s rolling up His sleeves again!” Election day in Florida.
Isa 49:3  He said to me, “You are my servant, Israel, in whom I will be glorified.” 

Isa 49:8  Thus says the LORD: “In a time of favor I have answered you; in a day of salvation I have helped you…”

Luke 1:45  And blessed is she who believed that there would be a fulfillment of what was spoken to her from the Lord. 
Luke 1:46  … “My soul magnifies the Lord, 
Luke 1:47  and my spirit rejoices in God my Savior, 
Luke 1:48  for he has looked on the humble estate of his servant. For behold, from now on all generations will call me blessed; 
Luke 1:49  for he who is mighty has done great things for me, and holy is his name. 
Luke 1:50  And his mercy is for those who fear him from generation to generation. 
Luke 1:51  He has shown strength with his arm; he has scattered the proud in the thoughts of their hearts; 
Luke 1:52  he has brought down the mighty from their thrones and exalted those of humble estate; 
Luke 1:53  he has filled the hungry with good things, and the rich he has sent away empty. 
Luke 1:54  He has helped his servant Israel, in remembrance of his mercy, 
Luke 1:55  as he spoke to our fathers, to Abraham and to his offspring forever.” 

Psa 50:1  The Mighty One, God the LORD, speaks and summons the earth from the rising of the sun to its setting. 
Psa 50:2  Out of Zion, the perfection of beauty, God shines forth. 
Psa 50:3  Our God comes; he does not keep silent; before him is a devouring fire, around him a mighty tempest. 


Sometimes with God, the human response to His exalted Word determines how the upcoming Season(s) will unfold. (Jer. 18:1-10) 

In faith, please celebrate a wonderful August in the Lord (past) with us!  “Behold, this we have searched out; it is true. Hear, and know it for your good,” Job 5:27.

First and always, He is worthy to receive our/your abandoned adoration without regard to one’s own preferences or perceptions, a unifier (Psalm 50:23).  Heartfelt celebration, now, of God’s Sovereignty, Providence & Word fulfills righteousness and thereby renews your strength to better withstand what is ahead.  Logic suggests we are all about to witness a huge spiritual CONFRONTATION between good and evil … and we want you up close, personal and totally syncing with Jesus via His Holy Spirit!  Please, draw near to God now and He will draw near to you, HalleluYah!    

“In fact, unless that time of calamity is shortened, not a single person will survive. But it will be shortened for the sake of God’s chosen ones.”  Jesus Christ, Matthew 24:22 (NLT)

Getting tired or weary, walking around in this land of deepest darkness?

Say to those who have an anxious heart, ‘Be strong; fear not! Behold, your God will come with vengeance; with divine retribution, He will come and save you.’  Isaiah 35:4 

Keep vacating all (needs, desires, preferences, complaints, etc.) to visit with Jesus by spending time in His Word, in faith that He is meeting you there by His Spirit, to Help you and Counsel you and Correct you and Encourage you and Position you [for what’s ahead] – and so much more, even using you to scatter the darkness!

Psa 149:1  Praise the LORD! Sing to the LORD a new song, his praise in the assembly of the godly! 
Psa 149:2  Let Israel be glad in his Maker; let the children of Zion rejoice in their King! 
Psa 149:3  Let them praise his name with dancing, making melody to him with tambourine and lyre! 
Psa 149:4  For the LORD takes pleasure in his people; he crowns the humble with salvation. 
Psa 149:5  Let the godly exult in glory; let them sing for joy on their beds for this honor. 
Psa 149:6  Let the high praises of God be in their mouths and a double-edged sword (the Word of God, Ephesians 6:17) in their hands (power, i.e., words), 
Psa 149:7  to execute vengeance on the nations and punishments on the peoples, 
Psa 149:8  to bind their kings with chains and their nobles with fetters of iron, 
Psa 149:9  to execute on them the judgment written against them – this is the glory of all his faithful people.  Praise the LORD! 



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Happy Valentine’s Day, Jesus

Click here to read about these precious living stones who surrendered to Jesus Christ!

All four received Christ as Savior, choosing to make Him their Lord. We are in prayer and in faith, hope and love to see them rescued from the street and established in a home of their own, glorifying their Savior and Lord – Jesus Christ.

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Happy 2022 to you!

A Christmas 2021 report via pictures and captions, from our 501c3 (Bethesda Ministries), click here

Literally thousands of dollars in charity were distributed where it counts in December 2021 … and each month throughout the year.

On 12/31/2020, I published Isaiah 33 as ‘the Word of the Lord’ regarding 2021.  I don’t regret it and believe parts of the chapter were specifically made plain to the whole world this year. 

John 1:5, “The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness has not overcome it” (or, “…has not understood it”).

Today I humbly declare Psalm 37 as ‘the Word of the Lord’ regarding 2022.  You can expect to see specific parts of the chapter made very plain to the whole world in coming weeks and months.  You should definitely dive into the chapter, expecting the Almighty to meet you there, hold your hand and walk you through its glorious benefits in 2022!!!

Happy New Year!

thru Jesus’ Glorifying-His-Word Name,
Robert & Susan Totman, Bethesda Ministries.

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Mornings with Carmen, Faith Radio interview

20-year Memorial Remembrance of 9/11, broadcast over nine cities and now available world-wide via podcast.

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In North Dakota, we gather to worship Jesus even when the high temperatures are 15 to 20 degrees below zero…UNLESS there’s no heat in the Church building!

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It’s YOUR power, use it!

Below is a love-letter my wife wrote to our missionaries behind bars, to encourage their shine in the darkest of environments. Note, she didn’t fault-find and hate-on current worldly authorities as so many “Christians” did during the previous U.S. presidency (thereby castrating their own power for positive change). I love my wife, thanking God for her. He deserves all the glory.

Proverbs 17:11, “Evildoers foster rebellion against God; the messenger of death will be sent against them.” People, for the sake of you being woke, I hereby inform you that America has entered a form of “the deepest darkness.” This will become more and more evident in due time UNLESS sufficient number of Christians get with God’s program / activity to save. If you understood the deepest darkness revealed to us, you’d be grasping for Light like never before.

Susan wrote:

In my seeking Him recently He did put on my heart to share with you something He just helped me with.  I don’t share for fantastic excitement, but for us to continually see through the veil that was torn into where God reveals truth & wonders & strategies to those who are HIS, whose HEARTs are LOYAL to Him!  (His Priests, His Prophets, His Kings & His Warriors)  So, together, we can bring our Father’s Heavenly Kingdom / Rule into the earth, enjoying its benefits.

With all of the recent events on the world stage, those events have tried to completely capture everyone’s attention.  It’s like a bad, bad freak show most days, hard to see any good reasoning behind most of what is going on.  Some of the issues seem to be meant to cause harm, fear, pain, panic, injury, injustice, oppression & persecution.  Whose “fruit” does that sound like? Stuff from heaven? (Uuh NO!) It’s definitely from a darker place.  My heart was so burdened one day, I had a deep burning desire in me to add my spiritual strength to the POWER & FORCE (for good) of what God (& His angel’s) were accomplishing NOW throughout the earth. I relayed this sentiment to my oldest son, with tears in my eyes, while gripping my heart/chest.  I told him my heart’s cry to the Lord this morning was, “Lord, what MORE can I do to support what You are DOING? Use me, Father, to aid & assist Your heavenly Host to bring YOUR righteousness & YOUR justice to Victory!”  I know the Lord doesn’t “need” my help, but my help (faith, worship & prayers) does serve His pleasure (the LORD & His purposes)!   A little while later I was brushing my teeth thinking about my conversation with my son…& I had a vision:  Suddenly, I saw a sword in front of me, I was holding IT in MY HANDS!  It was LARGE (about 3 inches wide x 3 feet long) & had a white LIGHT glowing from within the sword, shinning around the full edge of the blade & it was on FIRE!  Yep! A flaming, glowing sword in my hand! With the sight came the Voice of Holy Spirit saying, “YOU ARE SWINGING THIS SWORD IN THE SPIRIT EVERY TIME YOU PRAY!”  I was left with an impression to keep praying, I could perceive an impression relaying… “You ARE helping the forces of good & giving them aid! You ARE being effective!  Keep taking up the Sword of the Spirit, which is the Word of God & USING it!” It revealed the importance of praying every time Holy Spirit prompts my spirit to intercede over ANY matter.  We can all take comfort to our souls to understand what our actions in the natural “look like” in the spirit; we all have the Sword of the Spirit thru faith in Jesus, the Living Word.  NOW, when I pray I can see in my minds eye the SWORD that IS IN MY HANDS, my AUTHORITY in Jesus’ name, that God has given me.  I choose to swing that spiritual flaming sword at the enemies of my God, in Jesus’ name.  Our prayers are very valuable to God & His Kingdom!  Now, more than ever we are to be LASER SHARP FOCUSED ON THE HEART OF GOD in our prayers!  There is an attack that we can see with our eyes happening in the world around us, we have a responsibility to not be sleeping on the side lines but be in the spiritual battle beside Jesus on the battlefield!  No joke, its time to do what we have been prepared for.  We have more POWER flowing through our prayers than any force we can see with our natural eyes.  Remember Jesus telling the wind & waves to be still & it OBEYED HIM.  We are to speak to the things of this world and the heavenly realms (Eph. 3:10), relaying the Heart & Will of God in our prayers about them.  I know you know these things. 😊 I’m just stirred up, I guess. LOL!  Its REVIVAL TIME!!!  Be busy harvesting in the field beside Jesus and while you’re at it, keep your spiritual sword AT THE READY because YOU ARE TAKING GROUND, SOULS & PLUNDER FROM THE devil for the KINGDOM of HEAVEN ALONG THE WAY! 

Just a few scriptures that have been healing & helpful to keep our King in focus.

Gal 3:29  And if you belong to the Messiah, then you are Abraham’s descendants indeed, and heirs according to the promise. 

Whinners about worldly authorities do not “belong” to Christ, having withheld themselves from the Truth of His Sovereign rule (the benefits of His shed blood. Practically, they deny His sacrifice AND current reign). What “promise” does Galatians 3:29 refer to, for God’s faithful children? Well, “heirs of the blessings of the grace of life, and of the eternal inheritance; of the blessing of justification of life, and of everlasting salvation; of this world and of the world to come; of all the spiritual blessings of the covenant of grace, and of the incorruptible and undefiled inheritance of the saints in light; to which they are begotten through the abundant mercy of God, for which they are made meet by the grace of Christ; and to which they have a right by his justifying righteousness” (John Gill’s Exposition of the Entire Bible).

Promises like…

Deu 28:7  The LORD will cause your enemies who rise against you to be defeated before you. They shall come out against you one way and flee before you seven ways. 

Psa 125:3  For the scepter of wickedness shall not rest on the land allotted to the righteous…

Isa 54:14-15 In righteousness you’ll be established; you will be far from tyranny, for you won’t be afraid, and from terror, for it won’t come near you. Watch! If anyone does attack you, it will not be from me; whoever may attack you will fall because of you. 

Psa 149:4  For the LORD takes pleasure in his people; he adorns the humble with salvation. 
Psa 149:5  Let the godly exult in glory; let them sing for joy on their beds. 
Psa 149:6  Let the high praises of God be in their mouths and a double-edged sword in their hands,
 (can’t do this and whine at the same time!)
Psa 149:7  to execute vengeance on the nations and punishments on the peoples, 
Psa 149:8  to bind their kings with chains and their nobles with fetters of iron, 
Psa 149:9  to execute on them the judgment written! This is the glory of all his faithful people. Praise the LORD! 

Isa 51:7  Listen to me, you who know righteousness, you people who have my instruction in their hearts. Don’t fear the insults of mortals, and don’t be dismayed at their hateful words.
Isa 51:8  For moths will eat them up just like a garment, and worms will devour them like wool; but my deliverance will last forever, and my salvation to all generations. 
Isa 51:9  “Awake! Awake! Clothe yourself with strength, you arm of the LORD! Awake, as in days gone by, as in generations of long ago. Was it not you who split apart Rehob, who pierced that sea monster through? 
Isa 51:10  Was it not you who dried up the sea, the waters of the great deep, who made a road in the depths of the sea so that the redeemed could cross over?” 
Isa 51:11  “The scattered ones of the LORD will return, and they will enter Zion with singing. Everlasting joy will be upon their heads; they will attain joy and gladness, and sorrow and sighing will flee away. 
Isa 51:12  “I—yes, I—am the one who comforts you. Who are you, that you are so afraid of humans who will die, descendants of mere men, who have been made like grass? 
Isa 51:13  As a result, you have forgotten the LORD who made you, who stretched out the heavens and laid the earth’s foundations, and you live in constant fear every day because of the oppressor’s fury, since he’s ready to destroy. Now where is the oppressor’s fury? 
Isa 51:14  Distress will quickly be set free. He won’t die in the Pit, nor will he lack food.” 
Isa 51:15  “For I am the LORD your God, who churns up the sea, so that its waves roar, ‘The LORD of the Heavenly Armies is his name.’ 
Isa 51:16  I have put my words in your mouth and have covered you with the shadow of my hand, so that I could plant the heavens and lay the earth’s foundations, to say to Zion, ‘You are my people.’ 

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20-year Memorial of 9/11

“As fish are caught in a cruel net … so people are trapped by evil times that fall unexpectedly upon them.” Ecclesiastes 9:12    

Doesn’t God care that evil strikes so furiously and without anyone restraining it?

Think about the barbarianism that has plagued humanity for thousands of years.  Because of it, nations have risen and nations have fallen.  Have we outgrown barbaric behavior because we’re all so sophisticated now?  Beheadings on American soil since 9/11 (among other atrocities) prove that it’s a good idea for you to contemplate these weighty matters.

It was another ordinary, lovely morning that day, September 11, 2001, when I went to work at “New York Center” (ZNY, Air Route Traffic Control Center).  A shift worker, my Saturday overtime civil service promised another grand in the bank, that memorialized day which was a Tuesday for most of you.  By 9/11, I had socked away over 100-grand in my 401k, had my dream home, a youthful & lovely wife, beautiful children … and an array of very dark behaviors too.

I was helpless to stop the devastating blow; we had no control to turn away the evil time which had fallen upon the nation.  Within a week or two, Anne Graham Lotz said on TV that America had willingly turned God away, and that we therefore shouldn’t expect His hand (power) of protection as a nation [when evil does come].

As for me, I began having nightmares that night (before PTSD was “a thing”).  Within two years, I had lost my dream job, the 401k, the home, and my wife – we had divorce paperwork signed, sealed & paid-for, all but delivered.  I was suicidal, with a plan and looking for the right moment.

Like Ecc. 9:12, Jesus promised that storms would come to you and me in this life, “Everyone then who hears these words of mine and does them will be like a wise man who built his house on the rock. And the rain fell, and the floods came, and the winds blew and beat on that house, but it did not fall, because it had been founded on the rock. And everyone who hears these words of mine and does not do them will be like a foolish man who built his house on the sand. And the rain fell, and the floods came, and the winds blew and beat against that house, and it fell, and great was the fall of it.” Matthew 7:24-27

By these Words, Jesus had tried to insulate me from the evil attack.  He wanted to make me stormproof but never found my interest or cooperation in the partnership for my well-being, before 9/11.  I had been in a one-way relationship with God, “You love me, and I will do whatever I want.  Thank You, Lord!”  While I hate that evil had to come for me to wake from my delusion, I am eternally grateful to God for preserving me through the great crash and for extracting me from the ash heap of my very best efforts.  I praise God for His mercy and His faithfulness in that He gave me the opportunity to repent – not everyone was so fortunate on 9/11.  We offer special honor to our friend, Rosa, a servant in the National Guard who lost her life trying to help.

In October 2003, during our misery, my wife and I individually accepted Jesus Christ as our Savior (not a joint decision, but how it unfolded).  There would be no suicide or divorce; instead, we found a new perspective and, with it, inspiration to rebuild together, “under God.”

People get ready!

“A God who is uncontainable, uncontrollable, and unpredictable is, well, scary to minds that crave control, uniformity, security and conventional ways of life.  The truth is that if those characteristics seem scary to human minds, then God is scary.  He is God – fully supernatural and all-powerful and all-knowing at all times and in all places, without apology or deference to our opinions” (“Experiencing His Presence,” by Tommy Tenney).

In light of His imminent return to judge the living and the dead with finality, Jesus taught us to “Occupy till I come” in a passage about how to manage one’s life and assets toward increase and not diminishing returns (Luke 19:11-27).  As He gave me/us a unique perspective through my experience on 9/11, so He has given us an individualized perspective regarding how to “occupy.” His Spirit of love drove out unhealthy fear and created in us a healthy reverence for Him, convincing us that we were no longer relying on the world’s shaky economy but that we had been qualified by our Heavenly Father to share in the inheritance of the saints, transferred out of the world’s hopeless demise (w/its dominion of darkness) and into the Kingdom of His beloved Son (Col. 1:12-14).  We learned that following Jesus – keeping in step with Him – meant that we were wiser than our enemies (Psa. 119:98). 

It’s time for you and me to present to God that which has been “…founded on the rock,” surrendering all that we have and all that we are to the flames of His supreme, loving control … 18 years of Jesus’ Life through us:

Plus, some healing testimonies via Pastor Gil (click to read).

Above you see record of Jesus building His Kingdom through our lives offered to Him, as sacrifices:  Foundational support to two orphanages, letter-writing campaigns to men in maximum security prison, feeding the homeless (spiritually & temporally), preaching the Gospel … and so on.

In our endeavors to “Occupy till I come” we have found Christ partnering with us, step by step!  To His credit, we have lost track of the souls saved.  We have also seen cancers healed, marriages / families saved, abundant finances provided for those we pray for, generational curses removed from homes, our own children experience God’s Presence & Activities (testifying to His grace) and wonder upon wonder upon wonder – routinely.  On the flip side, we have also regularly seen unspeakable hardness and cruelty in response to the offer of God’s help, Jesus, breaking our hearts in indescribable ways.  We always need His help to keep our eyes fixed on Him.

Some of the most powerful moves of God we have seen came as “harsh” messages were being delivered.

The year our missionary journey began, I ministered to a disaster-stricken crowd that was growing riotous after Hurricane Katrina (2005).  I didn’t know what else to do/say, except to rebuke them, “…We are a nation of whores, chasing our own unholy desires without restraint!  We are killing 3,000 to 4,000 innocent babies per day!  Do you think those who died in the storm were more wicked than the rest of us?!  No, but unless you repent, you too will perish!…”

Where do you go from there, trying to arrest a rowdy crowd with God’s love?  I simply looked up, toward heaven, and lifted my hands, beginning to pray aloud in front of everyone, “Father, we do praise You for being in control of all things, not even a sparrow falls to the ground apart from Your will.  We thank You that by Your control we are still alive today, so that we may seek you and learn of your Goodness.  Please, God, provide [our need now] …”  At that, I lowered my hands to learn that a miracle had taken place while I prayed.  Everyone present (at least a 100 people) witnessed the event, breaking down in tears and repentance, asking God’s forgiveness and receiving Salvation through faith in Jesus.  The amazing harvest of souls came after the most intense trial accompanied by a butt chewin’.

In early 2008, I was seeking God when I heard His Voice (John 10:27), “America has mistaken the grace given her.”

In October 2010, I was accosted by two spiritual beings, having been summoned to the Throne of the Almighty through a vision – it was terrifying!  The sins of America had risen to the highest heaven, permeating a place of purity with the foulest mocking, arrogance and disdain toward the only One who can save.  All I could do was hit the deck with my hands covering my ears, trying to shut out the horrifically unjust sounds, and exclaiming, “I’m sorry, Lord!  I’m sorry, Lord!  I’m sorry, Lord!”  Within two months, a church-plant in North Dakota was initiated when God opened a door for me, “If only they could hear about the Blood of the Lamb, they would repent,” my heart had responded to the dramatic encounter.

In November 2012, I saw (John 16:13) the nation split in two, with a great chasm in between, ushering in what some may call a technocracy.  It was presented to me as totalitarianism enacted upon each individual citizen in America.

In October 2013, I was sent to humbly chew out a crowd for mismanaging the wealth God had given them.  During the call to repentance, I said, “Let me share a little bit of Scripture with you, from Psalm 29.  The God of glory thunders, right now!”  As the words of emphasis “right now” crossed my lips, either lightning struck the building or thunder clapped immediately overhead, literally shaking the entire facility and shaking away unbelief from every soul within it.  God received the reverence He is due, that day.    

In 2016, during the time that Corridors in the Sky was published, I began experiencing a ferocious and relentless attack on my physical body.  This endured with growing difficulties through 2019, testing my mind severely and eventually tapering off but leaving me with what appears to be permanent physical damage.  Right about now, I feel like a Jonah, appearing to my audience maimed and beaten, with a fiery Word / command to repent “while you still can.”  The grace of God upon the words of Corridors in the Sky has helped countless people (already) to repent in their relationships, finances and habitual practices, drawing nearer to God and His plan for their lives.  “Thank You, Jesus.”

Psa 119:67 Before I was afflicted I went astray, but now I keep your word.
Psa 119:71 It is good for me that I was afflicted, that I might learn your statutes.

My Spring 2020 Update on this blog said, “…I saw a horse running, in the Spirit, in January (before corona left China, supposedly). When I sought the Lord I was utterly arrested by reading of the horses in Zech. 6 & Rev. 6, war out of the celestial realms … I’m thinking I saw the virus running unrestrained – like a strong horse.  It’s that, or straight-up war at hand…” In relation to that post, please consider, “…former president of the Association of American Physicians and Surgeons (AAPS) Dr. Lee Merrit explain her belief that America is currently facing what appears to be biological warfare…” via this video: click to view.


Our ministry’s donations were down a mere $300 over the entire difficult year of 2020, compared to donations in 2019.  Thank you for your faithful love expressed to God through our hands. We hear God saying that He created “the Church” for His own pleasure and that through its Head, Jesus Christ, the Church will flourish with stability and increase through the most difficult times.  We are seeing His ministry of compassion and evangelism function through our lives, locally, since moving to Colorado in 2019.  It’s past time to watch your mouths, Christians (Isaiah 39)!  Your social media posts are being weaponized to use against you – even pro-life views have been described by America’s government in the last 24 hours as “an extreme attack” on their agenda (with 62 million innocent babies killed so far).  They have declared war against those they view as “political extremists,” maybe even this internet post. 

Psa 10:8  He sits in ambush in the villages; in hiding places he murders the innocent. His eyes stealthily watch for the helpless;
Psa 10:10  The helpless are crushed, sink down, and fall by his might. 
Psa 10:11  He says in his heart, “God has forgotten, he has hidden his face, he will never see it.” 
Psa 10:12  Arise, O LORD; O God, lift up your hand; forget not the afflicted. 
Psa 10:13  Why does the wicked renounce God and say in his heart, “You will not call to account”? 
Psa 10:14  But you do see, for you note mischief and vexation, that you may take it into your hands; to you the helpless commits himself; you have been the helper of the fatherless. 
Psa 10:15  Break the arm of the wicked and evildoer; call his wickedness to account till you find none. 
Psa 10:16  The LORD is king forever and ever; the nations perish from his land. 
Psa 10:17  O LORD, you hear the desire of the afflicted; you will strengthen their heart; you will incline your ear 
Psa 10:18  to do justice to the fatherless and the oppressed, so that man who is of the earth may strike terror no more. 

Please don’t be afraid to speak up in the Name of Jesus; only, first ensure you are following Him in discharging your message and not your own heated will.  He is a Shield to those who seek Him, aspiring to abide with Him.

Our largest anticipated expense at the moment is replacing the furnace / heat in the church building in North Dakota (after spending $500 for maintenance last month), estimated at $6,000 to $7,000.  We hope to do this as soon as the thaw of Spring 2021 allows, as the Lord provides.  God has told us that in their misery, people will begin to earnestly seek His face.  People get ready!

As witnesses, we testify, God is well-able to bring beauty from ashes.

Heb 12:4  In your struggle against sin you have not yet resisted to the point of shedding your blood.
Heb 12:5  And have you forgotten the exhortation that addresses you as sons? “My son, do not regard lightly the discipline of the Lord, nor be weary when reproved by him. 
Heb 12:6  For the Lord disciplines the one he loves, and chastises every son whom he receives.” 
Heb 12:7  It is for discipline that you have to endure. God is treating you as sons. For what son is there whom his father does not discipline? 
Heb 12:8  If you are left without discipline, in which all have participated, then you are illegitimate children and not sons. 
Heb 12:9  Besides this, we have had earthly fathers who disciplined us and we respected them. Shall we not much more be subject to the Father of spirits and live? 
Heb 12:10  For they disciplined us for a short time as it seemed best to them, but he disciplines us for our good, that we may share his holiness. 
Heb 12:11  For the moment all discipline seems painful rather than pleasant, but later it yields the peaceful fruit of righteousness to those who have been trained by it.  

Heb 12:22  … you have come to Mount Zion and to the city of the living God, the heavenly Jerusalem, and to innumerable angels in festal gathering, 
Heb 12:23  and to the assembly of the firstborn who are enrolled in heaven, and to God, the judge of all, and to the spirits of the righteous made perfect, 
Heb 12:24  and to Jesus, the mediator of a new covenant, and to the sprinkled blood that speaks a better word than the blood of Abel. 
Heb 12:25  See that you do not refuse him who is speaking. For if they did not escape when they refused him who warned them on earth, much less will we escape if we reject him who warns from heaven. 
Heb 12:26  At that time his voice shook the earth, but now he has promised, “Yet once more I will shake not only the earth but also the heavens.” 
Heb 12:27  This phrase, “Yet once more,” indicates the removal of things that are shaken—that is, things that have been made—in order that the things that cannot be shaken may remain. 
Heb 12:28  Therefore let us be grateful for receiving a kingdom that cannot be shaken, and thus let us offer to God acceptable worship, with reverence and awe, 
Heb 12:29  for our God is a consuming fire. 

Heb 10:19  Therefore, brothers, since we have confidence to enter the holy places by the blood of Jesus, 
Heb 10:20  by the new and living way that he opened for us through the curtain, that is, through his flesh,
Heb 10:21  and since we have a great priest over the house of God, 
Heb 10:22  let us draw near with a true heart in full assurance of faith, with our hearts sprinkled clean from an evil conscience and our bodies washed with pure water. 
Heb 10:23  Let us hold fast the confession of our hope without wavering, for he who promised is faithful. 
Heb 10:24  And let us consider how to stir up one another to love and good works, 
Heb 10:25  not neglecting to meet together, as is the habit of some, but encouraging one another, and all the more as you see the Day drawing near. 
Heb 10:26  For if we go on sinning deliberately after receiving the knowledge of the truth, there no longer remains a sacrifice for sins, 
Heb 10:27  but a fearful expectation of judgment, and a fury of fire that will consume the adversaries. 
Heb 10:28  Anyone who has set aside the law of Moses dies without mercy on the evidence of two or three witnesses. 
Heb 10:29  How much worse punishment, do you think, will be deserved by the one who has trampled underfoot the Son of God, and has profaned the blood of the covenant by which he was sanctified, and has outraged the Spirit of grace? 
Heb 10:30  For we know him who said, “Vengeance is mine; I will repay.” And again, “The Lord will judge his people.” 
Heb 10:31  It is a fearful thing to fall into the hands of the living God. 
Heb 10:32  But recall the former days when, after you were enlightened, you endured a hard struggle with sufferings, 
Heb 10:33  sometimes being publicly exposed to reproach and affliction, and sometimes being partners with those so treated. 
Heb 10:34  For you had compassion on those in prison, and you joyfully accepted the plundering of your property, since you knew that you yourselves had a better possession and an abiding one. 
Heb 10:35  Therefore do not throw away your confidence, which has a great reward. 
Heb 10:36  For you have need of endurance, so that when you have done the will of God you may receive what is promised. 
Heb 10:37  For, “Yet a little while, and the coming one will come and will not delay; 
Heb 10:38  but my righteous one shall live by faith, and if he shrinks back, my soul has no pleasure in him.” 
Heb 10:39  But we are not of those who shrink back and are destroyed, but of those who have faith and preserve their souls.   (red font mine for emphasis)

Ezr 8:22, “…The hand of our God is for good on all who seek him, and the power of his wrath is against all who forsake him.”

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